Thursday, June 10, 2010
Friday, June 04, 2010
I may not have brought back a souvenir from overseas for you.
But I had myself signed, sealed and delivered to you, if that's okay with you.
I may not have painted a picture, or wrote a song on impulse for you.
But I've made a card, wrote you a poem on impulse and made you silly handicrafts, if that's okay with you.
I may not have said things to make you feel better when you are down.
But in my heart is a really big hug for you, if that's okay with you.
I may not have fussed over you when you don't talk to me.
But I've fussed over you when you don't have food to eat, clean clothes to wear, enough exercise or sleep, if that's okay with you.
I may have said that I wanted to end up with someone else before I got together with you.
But the thing is, I got together with you, if that's okay with you.
I may not bring you to have ice cream when you are upset at work.
But I got you flowers, if that's okay with you.
I can't bring you to surprise European holidays.
But I can bring you to watch concerts at cheap ticket prices and listen to soothing music, if that's okay with you.
I may be a disappointment; a waste of time; a loser to you.
But I'm trying not to be, if that's okay with you.
I may be the source of an emotional roller coaster ride for you.
But I'm trying not to be, and there were the ups too, if that's okay with you.
I may not be loving and affectionate like how you want it.
But I'm still trying to be, if that's okay with you.
I may not feel warm towards you all the time.
But I'm trying to be warm all the time, if that's okay with you.
I may have made you cry week after week.
But I have made you smile. I'll just try to do it more, if that's okay with you.
I may not have the power to make you forget what you've read.
But I can always encourage you to look past it and let me come as I am, if that's okay with you.
I may not like you to compare.
I'm treating you the best, so there really isn't much to compare, if that's okay with you.
I wish I could press a button, turn back time, and not have all those things that make you upset.
But yesterday's history. We only have the gift of the present and the mystery of tomorrow, if that's okay with you.
You may not feel like I love you.
But I do, if that's okay with you.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
When read literally, the term "investing in yourself" sounds narcissistic and selfish -- to the point where it's almost disgusting to say "I invest in myself".
Well, what does it mean, really? Investing in yourself? There are no bonds/stocks to be traded here, no deals to be closed. How do you "invest in yourself"?
Basically, what it means is to better yourself in a multitude of ways. Pick up a new sport, learn a musical instrument, read about something you never thought you'd read -- things that make you a better person each day.
It's time to invest in yourself, Sean. In all ways, every day.
Friday, April 16, 2010
don't know what you want.
are not stable.
have mood swings.
are an idiot.
need to get a grip on yourself.
are a loser.
are a disappointment.
are a waste of time.
should just fuck off and die.
will never make it into a big firm.
are a smart alec.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
I must start writing regularly by next week.
I must start to be proactive by tomorrow.
I must learn something new every day, starting tomorrow.
I must feel the brain getting confused and frustrated. That is how I know I'm improving.
I must keep fit and eat more fruits.
I must love my girlfriend more.
I must have a decent-sized book by the end of the year.
And the biggest (and also the most ironic) "must" of all,
I must not put too much pressure on myself.
After all I've mentioned, adding in a pressure-inducing statement to mitigate all the other pressures isn't exactly an effective measure is it?
Now that got me thinking -- whoever said doing a "must" should be pressurising?
I'll always have the choice to have fun, but it seems I respond better to obligation, although having fun ensures less stress, less boredom, less humdrum and less frustration if the above "musts" are not fulfilled.
Why am I driven by obligation?
I love this time of the night. It seems like all the clever one-liners are queueing up for the 1pm show.
"If we were to play a game, and if I had to be a flying bird, I'd be a penguin. Because that's what I like to do: the impossible."